SurvivingInfidelity.com^®

Some of older members might even remember me, others can get some idea of what I went through from my profile...

Long story short, after her affairs ~10y ago, she did "the work" (i.e. towards R) for ~1 year and then just stopped. Traditional excuses - "I just don't know what to do anymore", "If you know, you should tell me" etc, etc, old timers here know the drill, it's also written in bold letters in Cheaters' Handbook.

Once I realized that, I said, "ok, let's live together, but you cannot expect that I will love you", she professed undying love no matter what (I said it won't last, remember my words) etc etc. Well, I kind of felt that for few years she cared and then she didn't.
So I said for myself, that ok, I'll wait until our children are 18-ish, then I'll dump her. And that if I even get a strange feeling, I'm out (i.e. not going to investigate, no proof needed).

So I got that feeling last summer. And some others signs. We had a talk - "I don't love you, I know that you don't love me, let's walk separate ways". I wanted to tell the kids right away, she didn't, and still believing that it would be best if we did it together I didn't.

Well, a week ago shit hit the fan, she was having A. One of my DDs found out, everybody in our sports community found out. WW told another DD that she will tell her something in morning, DD didn't wait, found out from the first DD. Now the only one who doesn't know is our youngest.

I haven't spoken to DDs yet, as I only found that out last night (i.e. about them knowing). This scares and hurts me most.

P.S. Wasn't sure that JFO is the right place, maybe General, but seeing the number of "found out"s in the text...

I’m sorry you had to suffer through another affair.

I hope you can D quickly and move on from this nightmare.

The thing is I'm not suffering directly. I don't care.

I'm suffering through my kids. That I'll have to talk with them about this. Doubts what to say, what not to say (they are 17/17/15 now). Fear of the future with them. Fear that WW will find a ways to fuck up everything even further.

I know it fits under "suffering from another affair"...

Regarding D - I hope that we can have rather clean one once we sell one property (ok, I after so many broken hopes I should be cautions about what I hope for).

When I was almost forced to discuss the impending divorce with my children (who were young teens at the time) I received some very good advice from my counselor.

He told me it’s best if both parents are present and to be prepared for the emotional reaction, some children may have. It is best if you and your spouse have a plan together so that you are both on the same page in what you tell your children.

He strongly suggested that you’ll be somewhat honest with them and give them a solid reason for the divorce. If you don’t have a plan to tell them somewhat of the truth, they may come back and blame you for the divorce, even though you did not do anything that caused it.

It is perfectly acceptable to say that there was cheating involved and unfortunately, it’s the cause for a divorce. You don’t need to go into graphic details, but you might want to suggest that you recognize that the impact to the marriage is significant and it’s just not something that you can’t accept or understand.

You should have a custody plan in place and a schedule so that you can communicate that to your children.

These are just suggestions that I received and I hope they provide some clarity for you.